~22nd Dance~

[donttelldaddy]

So, to recap my magnificent day...

Actually, never mind. I don't even know how to describe this absurd, nightmarish, disaster of a day.

[And the entry ends here. A few minutes later, however, the journal page has stab wounds. Those sharing a house with her may find this journal pinned to a wall, not unlike what you would expect if she had thrown a knife at it. Actually, exactly like that.]

Comments

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

Then why write anything at all?

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

I was going to, mostly for my own reference...

I don't have to justify myself to you.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

[ There's a drop or two of ink, and then crisp, neat handwriting. ]

Well I'm sorry it was so horrible for you, Lili.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

You're not really a girl, the passive-aggressive ridiculousness isn't getting by me.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

Sorry. What would you rather have me say.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

I don't know! Just...I'm so--

I don't even know what I am, right now. I'm going to stay out of your hair until I can quit behaving like an animal.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

If that's what you need, fine. I only request that you don't hurt Alfred's body. Please.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

My usual method of coping is shot, this body doesn't move right. So you don't have to worry about that.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

...Thank you.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

Matthew...

I'm-- That shouldn't have happened.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

You're right, it shouldn't have. But thank you for retrieving Peter.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

It wasn't a problem.

...if you want, I can leave. I'll stay with Sebastian.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

...I don't want you to leave, but that's entirely up to you.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

I'm only going to make it worse between you three. I promised myself that I would do exactly the opposite. I have no business here.

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

You have an obligation to justify yourself to everyone reading your journal.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

I don't have an obligation to do anything.

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

Then live in a cave where no one cares.

Private

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

...you promised yourself you'd make it better between us? Between my brothers?

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

I don't even know you, I don't have to take this.

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

Are you dumb?

Private

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

It's a promise I promptly broke, so no use getting worked up about it.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

No. Are you? Because that's the only possible reason for you to keep writing back.

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

I’m bored. My brother is a girl.

[donttelldaddy.livejournal.com]

That's nice.

[sotactful.livejournal.com]

It’s really annoying, actually.